[00:00.00]时代音乐网 www.78497.com  [00:21.68]Like [00:23.02]I met my girl when I was 18 years old [00:26.04]And she was just turning 23 [00:27.71]I really love her from my heart [00:30.61]And even though I don't deserve it fam I hope she loves me [00:33.29]So I just done this private show I'm doing footlocker promo [00:36.51]And judging from the postcode it was shoreditch or Soho [00:39.25]Did 6 or 7 tracks made 6 or 7 racks [00:42.28]A couple days later on twitter [00:44.00]I saw this photo of myself and I was grinning [00:46.38]That 4K camera of quality had got me tripping [00:48.95]So I'm checking out who did it [00:50.38]When I stumbled on this girl [00:51.61]And I could tell that she was different [00:53.26]A couple hours later now I'm liking all her pictures [00:55.72]I ain't finished [00:56.74]I typed her twitter name into my insta so [00:58.85]I could check on every single little digit [01:00.84]Why didn't I just message her [01:02.41]Trust me I was thinking but I'm a self-centred rapper [01:04.82]Too concerned about my image [01:06.53]The truth [01:07.43]So when she hit me first I'm pretty shocked I didn't burst [01:10.35]I'm calling josh jack and juss who am I ringing first [01:13.15]Man I was so excited [01:14.58]That I replied a minute later that's that bro [01:16.79]I think that you just let her know excited [01:18.70]Too excited no clue on what I should do excited [01:21.40]So I'm just typing rambling like a fool excited [01:28.69]Look [01:29.29]Look [01:29.86]And we were talking for hours over some minor things [01:32.70]Ignoring everyone else to her I'm replying quick [01:35.40]This type of chick she got a spark like you were lighting spliffs [01:38.33]You know you like her when you're thinking about your words [01:40.44]She got me typing deleting my messages then re-writing [01:43.31]In the hope that there's a smile when she's replying [01:45.60]The highlight of my day them phone calls in the night it's the little things [01:49.67]The girl she had a vibe and I liked it and [01:52.54]She's into photography and she's got a passion for it [01:55.07]And she respects that I'm rapping but she ain't catting for it [01:57.60]See that's the perfect balance [01:59.17]There's nothing better than a girl with talent [02:01.31]Drive ambition all of them things above [02:03.08]She's showing an abundance [02:04.47]I ain't even met her yet [02:05.86]She works around the corner but lives just outside of London [02:08.39]I ain't fronting I'm a sweet boy [02:10.13]Intentions are in question so my compliments are decoys [02:12.85]If that even makes sense [02:14.13]The first time I met her I'm surrounded by my friends [02:16.67]Random ends on some staircase [02:18.40]So much for a first date [02:19.93]I just had a show [02:21.12]And I asked if she could meet me after [02:22.79]Maybe we could chill you never know where things could go [02:24.93]No problem she down to roll [02:26.80]Travelled in the cold [02:27.98]So I went across the road grey hoodie under a coat [02:30.50]If I'm remembering correctly [02:32.23]It's always kind of weird when the person that you were texting [02:34.99]Is the person you are obsessed with [02:36.43]I was on her from the jump [02:37.72]I think she was wearing pumps or vans [02:39.65]When I first met her no it's either either one [02:41.80]She was looking so attractive [02:43.45]I barely saw skin' cause she was covered like a mattress [02:46.12]Man I think that she's the one [02:47.53]I was stuck for twenty seconds tryna to give the girl a hug [02:50.30]And all my friends are drunk so f**k it I'm about to kiss her [02:53.24]Any complications I'm blaming it on the liquor [02:55.95]Changing my name on twitter and blocking her on my insta [02:59.13]I saw her skin blush the moment that our lips touched [03:02.25]She pulled my bottom lip until it stretched [03:04.49]Kissed me on my cheek until she reached around my neck [03:06.82]And had me moaning like a b**ch [03:08.57]Even though I'm wearing jeans [03:09.93]I had to re-arrange my **** so she don't see that I'm erect [03:12.56]It's the first time we met got me feeling like a creep [03:15.40]And that strawberry flavour gave her tongue a kinda sweet little taste [03:18.86]And we could speak about anything we were friends first [03:21.79]I dropped her to the station I remember [03:23.89]'Cause we had a conversation for ages about our dreams [03:26.64]And the things that we hadn't seen and all that we intended to do [03:29.87]I bet she's hoping my intentions are true [03:32.85]And as months went by we both got into it and intimate [03:37.03]And I'ma spare you the details' cause both of our parents are probably listening [03:40.40]But really we were into it [03:42.20]Into us into this [03:43.67]Into everything about each other we were lovers and [03:46.08]I love her' cause she knows me and that's probably [03:48.22]Why she told me you ain't ready for a girl [03:50.39]You're still a little kid that's getting ready for [03:52.55]The world and you don't need that kinda burden [03:54.35]But I told her that I want it [03:56.01]And I'm just being honest yes I know that girls exist [03:58.32]But I don't see them as a problem [03:59.98]I meant every single word [04:01.59]And I ain't gonna lie and say dm's have been absurd [04:04.07]But out of every single girl [04:05.52]This is the weirdest of positions [04:07.20]It's usually the girl that's asking where I see her fitting [04:09.68]Or a place on her position [04:11.18]But I'm telling her I need it [04:12.67]And I don't think she sees it so I'm being even sweeter [04:15.32]When we're speaking and we're meeting [04:17.31]I've got affectionate messages you could read them [04:19.85]You gotta tell a girl that she's beautiful' til she sees it [04:22.90]Believes it understands it more than physically [04:25.81]Mentally and the way that I'm feeling [04:28.01]I could talk 10 years about the moment that we shared [04:30.86]The jokes that we had running [04:32.24]The places that we've been [04:33.58]The music we made together producing next to my bed [04:36.29]Then making my minor changes in reference to what she said [04:38.80]I think I start to getting tired my schedule's a mess [04:41.97]Replies are getting' lazy and my lady knows it's crazy [04:44.65]But she's there if I'm in need [04:46.07]While I'm at shows getting tempted by girls that are on their knees [04:48.94]You know I'm only a teen it's like my eyes started drifting [04:51.77]Not as easy as I pictured to give your all to a woman [04:54.48]Ignoring all this attention that's been getting to my head [04:57.37]The sex is so accessible one message or text [05:00.05]And girls will get in your bed [05:01.53]She's tryna make it happen with photos and her events [05:04.35]I mentioned it's her passion photography is her thing [05:06.86]And I don't know if it's the pressure [05:08.50]Where paper meets the passion and the pleasure [05:10.84]We all gotta work to survive [05:12.46]So now she's popping up at shows [05:14.07]Taking pictures on her own [05:15.50]And at first it wasn't cool [05:16.87]But f**k it we let it go [05:18.17]Until I saw her in some rapper's tracksuit I felt a way [05:20.95]She told me it was work and she was in some studio [05:23.46]Taking pictures and I just sighed [05:25.23]Some halfway wannabe rappers that fed her lies [05:28.00]They ain't looking for no picture [05:29.38]I know it's your profession [05:30.81]But read their intentions [05:32.30]They ain't paying male photographers to shoot that same session [05:34.97]And that felt so disrespectful standing on our dreams [05:37.72]And crushing' em I just told her it's nothing do what you need to do [05:41.08]If I ain't feeding you [05:42.37]Then my opinion's all I'm giving when I speak to you [05:44.80]'Cause I don't have the right [05:46.14]Why should girls be punished for a male's dirty mind [05:48.90]When I think about it now I'm ashamed to the core [05:51.71]I mean how many men stop their women from achieving [05:54.34]What they can because in secret they've been feeling insecure [05:57.00]And I can't handle my emotions it's probably why I didn't see her [06:00.41]Talent when I shoulda been supporting and promoting [06:02.70]Like I didn't have a platform a voice and a following [06:05.76]With everyone I knew I really coulda do a lot of things [06:08.62]To help chase her dream [06:09.81]But instead of me to grow into the person that she needs [06:12.42]I acted like I couldn't see [06:14.65]And I don't mean to say this like I don't trust the girl [06:17.25]But how can I trust her if I don't trust myself [06:20.03]And even girls can get tempted you know how it goes [06:22.90]What if she meets a bigger rapper when she's at a show [06:25.62]What if he sees her backstage [06:27.25]What if he selling lots [06:28.53]What if he's got a bigger car got a better watch [06:31.28]That doesn't bother me she really ain't material [06:33.99]It's all the little things they do that put the fear in you [06:36.90]What if he actually replies [06:38.37]What if he phones her too [06:39.68]What if he's doing all the things that I'm supposed to do [06:42.38]What if he's listening laughing relating [06:45.11]What if he even cares to ask her how her day's been [06:47.92]What if he's trying to give her everything [06:49.86]She needs and expects from the one damn person that she's dating [06:54.12]I shoulda helped her follow her dream [06:55.87]But instead I held her back and had her following me [06:59.26]And boys got a brave face so they'll never know [07:02.06]That it hurts just as much when you let them go