[00:00.00]时代音乐网 www.78497.com  [00:02.00]Yeah this just my life [00:09.33]Front to back top to bottom [00:15.33]Everything's changing around me [00:18.86]These days don't feel the same [00:22.42]We all lost faith and lost family [00:26.07]Why must we play this game [00:29.65]Lord have mercy on me [00:33.25]I've been a sinning man [00:36.86]Pull out my wings jump off the bridge and crash in a plane [00:40.62]If I never land [00:42.54]Know I never die [00:48.96]We live forever in my mind [00:56.56]And I sanctify [01:02.93]We live forever still that life [01:11.47]There's a lot going on but I stick to the ones I love [01:14.61]I never claimed to be a perfect man but name a great man who was [01:18.21]Consequences of my actions in the past years had me stressing out [01:21.96]It was like may I just moved to l a [01:24.02]I was tryna figure it out [01:25.57]Medication for depression that I cut cold turkey had the kid manic [01:29.22]In an episode out in hollywood wilding out like nick cannon [01:32.76]Railing adderall pills out a dollar bill on the bathroom floor [01:35.99]Clean the whole mess up with my nose [01:37.79]What the f**k I need a vacuum for [01:39.68]New york city on my birthday june 6 th 2014 [01:42.81]I had that first meeting with hov plus I brought out the whole team [01:46.40]I drank that whole bottle of d'usse ty ty gave me that night [01:49.87]When we left the club after rap genius house me [01:52.17]And shorty got into a fight [01:53.44]She came out the room swingin' hit me in the jaw [01:55.81]I was really tryna fend her off [01:57.32]But I ended up in the closet with my hands around her neck [01:59.98]I was tripping dawg [02:01.13]Too proud to apologize or empathize I blamed it all on her [02:04.54]Saying that she hit me first even though she was the one hurt [02:08.13]I was really just reflecting all the hurt [02:09.91]That I was feeling from the band's rejection [02:11.96]When kids these days split that sh*t felt like a c-section [02:15.02]And my infidelity and jealousy with natalie on top of the amphetamines [02:18.52]And the ecstasy had me tryna drown face down in the chesapeake [02:22.43]The next month I dropped down on my luck and had europe going nuts [02:25.76]But I couldn't even appreciate it at the time I was going through too much [02:29.53]Now I had to leverage million dollar label deals on the table for my records [02:33.11]In ibiza eating paella on the roof tryna choose over breakfast [02:36.62]Hov wasn't with the bidding war but I knew the roc just felt right [02:39.98]When I saw kanye at wireless without t-pain still a good life [02:43.52]Felt so close when mr hudson introduced me to him backstage [02:47.13]He prolly don't even remember that sh*t like a b**ch off backpage [02:50.64]But at that stage [02:51.74]I was ready to swing for the fence like a batting cage [02:54.49]At the same time I was winding down a low point in my addict phase [02:57.84]The adderall started wearing off and I went into a deep writer's block [03:01.38]All over a song that I couldn't finish [03:03.15]That I wrote about signin' to the roc [03:05.17]Isn't that ironic I was feeling so psychotic [03:08.25]With the whole world excited for me and my idol saying I got it [03:11.76]Sh*t got bad out in l a [03:13.49]So I moved back home to my mom's basement [03:15.97]Linked up with smoko and papi beatz and took it back to basics [03:19.65]Then I wrote rage that was me screaming out through the pain [03:22.70]And u mad addressing my relationship with natalie it was too bad [03:26.33]The violence and the lies slipped suicide into my mental health [03:29.87]I did acid in the studio one day and almost killed myself [03:33.68]As I started to fall apart certain stars started to align [03:37.12]Oh mys came to chicago in january at the perfect time [03:40.34]He said kanye was working on an album [03:42.35]And uzi played him one of our songs [03:44.14]He was tryna fly me out ni**a it was goin' down like the dow jones [03:47.99]Pulled up to westlake first day I was there I recorded wolves [03:51.22]I knew I was the one like neo meeting with the oracle [03:54.29]But I had to get a handle 'fore the door was pulled [03:56.71]Crawled out on snl [03:58.39]All the niggas hating on me back home lookin' at me like fml [04:01.76]A lot of people coming out the wood like let's work tryna network [04:05.25]All the pressure making my head hurt the molly wouldn't let the meds work [04:08.92]At this time it's like feb 1 st to the 15 th [04:11.62]And I'm still addicted [04:12.62]Frustrated writing sh*t for ye tryna visualize someone else's vision [04:16.18]Then he laid that verse on u mad and we made the sh*t the single [04:19.72]Ye and hov getting into it over me tryna do a joint venture [04:23.24]And good music still fam but it's that roc boy savemoney life [04:26.67]Took the bus out on the road for the traffic tour did a hundred nights [04:30.21]Cleaned out my closet I got rid of all of my demons [04:33.60]If you learn one thing from my journey ni**a it's don't stop believing [04:37.12]When this sh*t got so suffocating I could barely even keep breathing [04:40.66]Wrote my wrongs all in this song now [04:42.53]I'd like to welcome y'all to my season [04:44.22]Ni**a I'm gone [04:58.43]Know I never die [05:05.01]We live forever in my mind [05:12.61]And I sanctify [05:19.06]We live forever still that life