[00:00.00]时代音乐网 www.78497.com  [00:13.59]I let somebody in, and then it killed me [00:15.45]Sometimes I hate that I always feel things [00:17.28]'Cause everything I care for is always leaving [00:19.17]Me and my heart need to have a meeting, look [00:21.30]Fighting all the demons that are living in my mind [00:23.10]Can't be looking back, when you leave it all behind [00:24.87]"Coulda, woulda, shoulda," yeah, I hear it all the time [00:26.49]I got so much to say, but all I say is, "nevermind" [00:28.26]So let me let you in for a couple of minutes [00:30.21]Praying to God like, "Could you give me a minute?" [00:31.92]Forgive me for the ways that I've been living [00:33.24]I said that I'd be different [00:34.14]I know you don't see a difference, but [00:35.46]You gave me this life, I'm just playing the cards [00:37.38]Every time I pray, I don't know where to start [00:39.09]Grocery shopping, never filling the cart [00:40.74]There's food for thought, I need food for the heart, yeah [00:44.46]Got my hoodie up, earphones all in [00:46.17]I didn't go to work, I hardly call in [00:47.97]Told my mom, "Look, I gotta be all in" [00:49.77]Friends hit me up like, "When we ballin'?" [00:51.48]The girl I used to love, we're hardly talkin' [00:53.16]'Cause I'm locked and I'm chasing a dream, sleepwalkin' [00:55.08]I'm lost in the fact that money's just costin' me [00:58.41]This the life that I need, all this ink that I bleed [01:00.30]Is to paint you a picture they don't want you to see [01:01.92]That they don't want you to be, to find the happier things [01:04.01]Money, clothes, women all material things [01:05.58]Will walk out and leave, but one day you'll see [01:07.35]Tryna find my way on this one-way street [01:09.27]Staring at this road like it's you and me [01:11.19]I'm not gonna run this time [01:17.73]From what I've buried deep inside [01:24.90]It's time I left it all behind [01:31.23]So I won't, I won't, I won't [01:37.65]Run this time [01:40.50]"I love you more" to "how you been?" [01:43.25]Same feelings every time again [01:44.81]Said we'd stay friends, but we ain't friends [01:46.46]Yeah, come on now, really man, it feels so silly [01:48.38]You feel that you get me, but you don't really get me [01:50.24]You don't wanna talk, you think you know what I'm feeling [01:51.86]Oh you keep it a hundred? Okay, I'll keep it a milli [01:53.48]You lost out, and I'm coping [01:55.58]Tryna hang these feelings, but I'm roped in [01:57.11]When I say I'm heartless, I ain't jokin' [01:58.64]Why do I keep something with me that's broken? [02:00.89]Losing my patience, I'm out of it [02:02.30]Bringing up things that I've done like I'm proud of it [02:04.07]Making myself, can you tell that I'm adamant? [02:05.81]Christmas is coming and I'm wanting all of it [02:07.85]If you don't get it now, you gotta get it yourself [02:09.53]Nobody thought I would be here, nobody thought I would sell [02:11.54]I look at myself, only one thing I can tell [02:13.13]If I could be anybody, it'd be nobody else [02:15.44]24/7 I'm lookin' for heaven, I wonder, am I doin' enough? [02:18.50]You give us this freedom to we do what we want— [02:20.27]And this sin is just put in our cups [02:22.04]So tell me what I'm supposed to do [02:23.93]Show me what I'm supposed to see [02:25.52]'Cause seems like everybody knows who I am [02:27.41]And the kind of person I'm supposed to be [02:29.33]Finding myself in a world that is lost [02:31.04]My back has been living on walls [02:32.93]Gripping this mic like it's all that is left [02:34.46]Without music I'm nothing at all, 'cause [02:36.47]I'm not gonna run this time [02:43.07]From what I've buried deep inside [02:50.24]It's time I left it all behind [02:56.57]So I won't, I won't, I won't [03:02.96]Run this time [03:18.81]I'm a waiter waiting on tables [03:20.52]Waiting for tables to turn [03:21.69]You live and you learn [03:22.50]In this life it ain't about the money that you made [03:24.39]But what did you earn [03:26.01]Did you give love or did you take it [03:27.63]When she said "I love you," did you break it? [03:29.49]When she started to cry, did you face it? [03:31.26]When you broke her heart, did you replace it? [03:33.09]Looking back at my past, I'm regretting a lot of it [03:35.19]All in my head, I've been tryna get out of it [03:36.99]Losing myself just to find who I am [03:38.67]Taking a leap just to find where I stand [03:40.47]Getting impatient, like when will I make it? [03:42.15]They tell me stop waiting, like go out and take it [03:44.10]Chasing a dream, but, like, what am I chasing? [03:45.75]Alone in my room, I've been constantly pacing [03:47.52]I look at myself and the things that I've said [03:49.29]Things I've let go, all the people I've kept [03:51.12]Investing in love, can you tell I'm in debt? [03:52.86]We fell so in love, like, did you forget? [03:54.60]Forget it, I'll pick up the mess and I'll leave it to rest [03:56.88]Close up the hole that you left in my chest [03:58.65]In love with a stranger, man, who would've guessed? [04:00.27]So I pick up this pen like it's all I got left [04:05.40]I'm not gonna run this time [04:11.97]From what I've buried deep inside [04:19.11]It's time I left it all behind [04:25.47]So I won't, I won't, I won't [04:31.89]Run this time