[00:00.00]时代音乐网 www.78497.com  [00:06.92]Yeah [00:11.90]Depression anxiety got ahold of me [00:13.77]'Cause people say they want the older me [00:15.88]Well I'm thirty this the oldest me [00:17.37]Behold it's me the piece of s**t that's not good enough [00:19.53]Not black enough not hood enough [00:21.54]Not rich enough not poor enough [00:23.25]My heart has poured enough [00:24.74]I been beaten and battered my confidence shattered [00:27.49]Been broken and tattered [00:28.51]I'm constantly second guessin' if my profession is worth it on my mental state [00:33.42]Writin' this from a dark place with humility and grace [00:37.08]Peace love and positivity was my nativity [00:39.74]But now when socials are in my vicinity [00:41.90]I'm not runnin' from the internet [00:43.75]My god I was at his birth I've been a vet [00:46.07]Goin' berserk like Peter down at InterTech yo ayy [00:50.00]It's deeper than the surface I'm searchin' for purpose [00:52.35]I'm tired of searchin' for logic and Googlin' purposes to read that I'm worthless [00:57.05]I remember makin' music alone just a pen and a microphone [01:00.65]But nowadays it's hard to get in the zone [01:03.34]Writin' rhymes was easy before the fame [01:05.10]But now I'm constantly overthinkin' every line it's a shame [01:08.06]Rap used to fill me with joy now it's nothin' but pain [01:10.60]I'm stuck in the game tryna get back from where I came [01:13.67]I write this letter for the person who's listenin' [01:16.64]Fed up and tired of people dismissin' 'em I'm with you [01:19.43]I been through what you been though [01:20.90]No amount of money can take away the feelin' of insecurity [01:24.51]Only though maturity can we overcome [01:26.79]Feel like I've been overrun feel like it's over I'm done [01:29.49]Whoever told you success gon' make you happy [01:31.73]You been lied to [01:33.19]All of my dreams came true but I bleed and cry too [01:36.21]Never been perfect I failed everytime I tried to [01:39.58]Feelin' hated and underappreciated [01:41.49]Everytime I look in the mirror I wonder "Why you" [01:45.19]S**t I'd love to end this on some positive s**t [01:48.40]Hit you with punchlines instead of some derogative s**t [01:51.26]But it's okay to be sad sometimes and tired of s**t I guess [01:57.16]Alan Watts： [01:57.51]And people say "Well you're just out for money" [02:00.79]I say "That's none of your business" [02:03.20]You see a lot of people don't feel happy [02:05.17]Unless they have another thing beyond money which is called status [02:10.10]And status to a very large extent in our economy consists in [02:14.87]In having this thing that thing the other thing and having a swimming pool [02:19.98]A uh Ferrari uh some kind of clothes and uh some kind of house [02:26.52]And so on and so on and so on [02:28.80]And we think uh we need all that [02:31.07]Because we haven't asked ourselves whether that was what we really wanted [02:35.37]They all think they gotta have this they gotta have that [02:40.18]And uh they don't really want it [02:42.17]If they sat back and considered [02:44.51]"Do I need all that is this trip really necessary" [02:48.00]They would come to the conclusion it wasn't [02:51.47]Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha